Reality;
It's not just Rainbows&Butterflies.

though this is a new blog created this year, i already had 71post!
not bad huh~

but my last blog has 380+ post.
xD

Today stayed home, didnt meet baby.
morning woke up 8am plus.
first thing that come through my mind every morning when i wake up is "did baby go school today?"
msg him to see if he's awake.
he replied, "ya"

so i went to use com after that.





been keeping myself in thoughts today.
think and concluding.
asking myself again and again the same question.
concluding this concluding that.
i'm tired of needing to think so much.
it never stops every single day.
compressing, trying to understand, trying to think of a solution.

is it really so important to blame?
is punishment really needed?
i don't understand anymore.
the love i know, is not the love i see.
so what is love?
i don't get it anymore!

i simply just wish that when i open my eye tml morning, it'll be alright.
every year i wish my birthday will be a happy one.
without having to feel sad or cry.
because ever since i cried during my birthday when i was in primary school.
since then, every birthday has been filled with sadness...
its like the happiness i can feel during my birthday is limited.
it's like what the old people said, its like a curse.
year over year i told myself i'm too 'Mi Xing'.
but year over year i tell myself the next year will be different.
and yet year over year, its a different kind of sadness.
shall not think so much...

looking back, i feel like the world's changing.
not the develop kind of changing.
but the people hearts and the feeling everyone gives out.
maybe i am slowly growing out of my own little fantasy world and facing reality.
things aren't just rainbows and butterfly anymore.



this childish thing called LOVE; ღJasmine

Run Away;
To a place no one will find me.

Tired tired...
didn't sleep last night.
baby too.

lun whole morning then go meet baby at Doubby Gaut.
Late for an hour...
*Sorry Sorry~*

he was with Roger.
-heng ar-

then after that walk to bugis.
bought the omelet noodle set or smth.
while waiting for the food to be ready i went to bought coke for me and baby.
i'll rate the noodle a 1/5.
SUPER SALTISH AND GOT CAO DA.

temper isn't that good today.
baby too.
think cause we didn't sleep.

when looking for the meeting point; quarrel.
when decided to not watch movie and go home instead; quarrel.
and i bet there's still alot of time we felt pissed off just that we didn't mention it.
haiis...



FUCK MY LIFE.
I HATE MYSELF.
DIE!



i hope the world ends soon.
misery will then disappeared from the face of earth when no one's left.




its because of the way i am that i hate myself; ღJasmine

Sunday; June 28 2oo9

Some...
Words are better off not being told.
Thoughts are better off not known.
and therefore, it turns into secrets that will never be found out.
As so long i keep it to myself.

Today slept all the way till 8pm.
use com and chat with baby all the way.
Today damn no life.


DeadBeat Boyfriend
Click here to view this short clip.



That's all for today.

i love you anyway; ღJasmine

Saturday; June 27 2oo9

Today baby called me when he's on his way to meet officer.
Chat a little and hung up as he said he's kinda tired, wanna rest on bus awhile.
This silly boyfriend of mine then missed his stop and kinda got lost in the end.
So he cab down to the place and lend money from his officer to pay cab fare.

Dumb dumb.

After that i met his at Toa Payoh.
Took bus 8 back to his house and he went to sleep while i entertain his little bro a lit and fell aslp too.

Woke him up at 8pm plus.
He called and report to his officer then around 10.50pm we went down to meet up with Jeremy&XiaoPang.
then walk to the basketball court near by met up with Justin&Ben.
then had dinner.
Jeremy&XiaoPang left not long after we bought our food.
Then met up with Vince and slack under a blk.
On the way back to baby house to pee, saw Joe.
his reaction when he see us is super STUNNING & SUSPICIOUS.


After peeing, went back to meet the rest again.
Talk about joe reaction to them and talk about the TaiJi stuff.
Things suddenly seems so serious and scary.
Baby is worried about my safety since i'm at the place where its most dangerous.
Yeah, because of the CRAZY NUT ASS MAN.
so i hugged baby and reassure him everything's gonna be alright!

After that slack at the play ground all the way.
Very tired and sleepy.
Decided to cab home around 3am.
reach home around 4am.

Ate a bit of food and played facebook a while.
Now super sleepy.
Shall go sleep le.
Good night people!

Signing out; ღJasmine

The Numbness I Crave For;
no more sadness, i don't wanna know.

Here to blog again.

Been some time since i last update my Wants&Need.

But guess there's not much on the need part as i'm no longer studying.

WANTS:
1.Go hougang look for skincare doc to stop the pimples from growing!
2.Trim eyebrows
3.False eyelash
4.Dye Hair
5.Cut hair
6.Reborn only the tail of my Hair.
7.Hair extension [as i think my hair not long enough]
8.Camera [i wanna take picture of the beautiful world we live in]
9.Blusher
10.More new clothes.
11. New wallet
12. New shoes

NEEDS:
1. A JOB!

Mum, dad and sis has been constantly asking me to go find a job.
They even ask me to work with my second sis at the CosCafe maid restaurant which is feature in iLOVE[that comes wif iWeekly]
Oh yeah, my sis has been feature in the magazine.
She complains that the photo editor make her face look so fat.
[guess she has become fat after all =X ]

baby asked me to work either as a promoter or at a bookstore.
He doesn't wan me to wear a maid dress and serve others.
And since we had work as a waitress before, we had experienced the tiredness of it so no more waitress for us.

Job job job, money money money is all i hear from people now a days.
Study has been out of the question.
It really bothers me alot that money is always making such a big fuss for everyone.
Including me.

No money = no food & no shopping & no playing = no life & no fun = wat's the point of living?
freaking siian.
but i'm sure money is not only what makes the world go round.
i'm positive it's love. (:


In the blink of an eye, 3 major things are coming up in JULY.
1. Baby finish probation - 7 July = 10more days
2. My birthday - 7 July = 10 more days
3. Me & baby 4th month - 15July = 18 more days

Sadly, i'm only left with 200bucks.
HOW AM I GONNA CELEBRATE ALL THESE?!?!
baby's kinda bothered about this too.
See! Money fault again.
GYAAA!

Might need to lend a little from mom.
And baby said that after his probation, we go dye and cut hair tgt.
is it still possible?


Today baby wake up didn't sms me.
instead he msn me a little then disappeared.
Then i gave him a call but he seems like in a rush and so we hung up less than a min.
Bored to death at home so took a nap at 12pm to 4pm & 8pm to 11.50pm.
Didn't sleep well last night due to me leg pain.
Guess walk around too much ytd.
Slept at 4am and woke up around 6am last night.

then 11.50pm baby got call me.
But when he hear my voice like sleeping he ask me go back sleep.
I told him i'm already awake.
Then he said he's wif his fren.
So i said okay, you go do ur stuff bahhs, bye bye.
and hung up.
less than a min again i guess.
No msg the whole day as usual.
Hope he manage to sell all the tickets today.
Got no information about it although he did call me.
Oh well...


Tml's one of baby's BIG day.
Afternoon meet officer, at night go attend inhouse party at fairy point.
He said he didn't want to go but if he don't go, many of his frens won't go so he have to go.
And he say he only wants to drink.

Hope he have fun.
Justin they all going, Jeremy they all going, ZhiXiong and his frens going and not to forget his gan daddy they all also going.
Big group, he'll enjoy himself for sure. (:


Sacrificing, Giving; What is all this for? ; ღJasmine

The song that i'll only sing for you;
The love song










Days spent without you;
hours and min pass by without a care in the world.
Days spent with you;
hours, mins and even every second is filled with fear;
fear of losing you.

Today woke up, go bank withdraw money.
Then go eat and bought eyeliner and concealer with mummy.
After than train down to doubby gaut to meet baby.
Then we went around trying to sell the party ticket.
After that tried our luck at clack quay.
But when ever people heard of the pricing, they chua sai and say dont wan.
Sad...

didnt get to sell anything today.
leg fucking pain & tired.
and we even walk through boat quay.
i think the clubbing girls must be thinking that i'm insane.
bring my own boyfriend to such places and let him see girls.
Bused home around 10.50pm.

Read home at 12am.

now chatting with baby.

Sorry, still no photos.
Be patients and wait for me to get a better phone alright people? (:


the differences doesn't seems different anymore; ღJasmine

YTD night, baby called me.
we chat over the phone till he fell aslp.
he said he's coming to yishun around 2pm to collect ticket from his fren.
and so he could meet me for brunch too.
i was so happy and excited!

morning, woke up 2.50pm+
tot i over slept,
called him and he's still slping.
so i waited at home for his call.
4.30pm plus, he called.
but he was already in FAREAST PLAZA with Vince and Justin.
disappointed

and for the whole day he only contacted me about ticket, money, meet up time for the in house party.
sad

when he finally reaching yishun around 8pm+
he called to meet me at the MRT station.
reached and saw ZhengSong kor kor already there.
earlier than expected as we were suppose to meet at 9pm to pass the $$ for the tickets.

then baby arrived.
spot him so easily in the crowd.
Vince and Justin came too.

after all the money and ticket passing thing, we went to chong pang and had our dinner.
after that baby took bus 969 back.
so i went home.

around 2am, baby called me.
happy
he told me some kind of tai ji happened that's why he's home.
chat with him on the phone till his frens came his house and we hung up.
and now...
waiting for his phone call ever since as he said he would call back...
bored to death

sorry people.
didnt post photos as i lazy take photo as the phone camera is a bloody 2MP.
shity quality.

anyway...



if you like to drink hard liqour or beer,
infact if u love to drink hard liqour or beer.
this is the party just for you!

There'll be a party down at Fairy point bungalow on the
27th june.

BEST OF ALL, IT'S HELD NEAR A BEACH!

party includes free flow hard liqour, beer, food etc.

DRINK LIKE NO TOMORROW!!!

tickets will be selling at $45 .
party starts from 10pm to 5 am.

FREE SHUTTERBUS RIDE FROM PASIR RIS MRT FROM 9.30PM TO 12AM!!!

music will be RnB , house , trance all night long !
interested parties please contact ANDY asap as they'll only be 500 tix available.
contact ANDY @ 98579919

*now only 23 TICKETS LEFT!*

and i heard that 400tickects has already been sold to ALL GIRLS!
shhhh~~....


i'm used to it; was all i could say; ღJasmine

2nd day without baby again...

when ever i wanna try to take time out for myself away from baby...
it never seems to work well for me.
i cant help but feel insecure without being by his side.

i hate my life...
T^T







there's alot of things that had been bugging me and i didnt dare to speak it out.
i guess it's time i really should pluck up the courage and speak it out.
i dont wanna suffer like this no more.







today met a pervert online.
i dont even remember adding any frens in msn since i was with baby.
and there this guy name jason who talked to me and i tot he was a fren who i have forgotten.
he suddenly wanna wedcam with me but i didnt hab one but he said it was okay.
so i accepted the video call and guess what i saw when the picture start up?...

HE SHAKING HIS FUCKING TINY BROWN COLOR LITTLE BROTHER!
-puke-
fucked up luck!

jasontanlw@hotmail.com <--LOOK OUT FOR THIS PERVERT!


without hesitation, i closed the chat window, curse and swear him and deleted and block him.
it's freaking disgusting...
lucky i haven eaten anything for the whole day.





having period cramps and its killing me...
keep on feel like puking somemore...
and...
I HAVEN EATEN ANYTHING THE WHOLE DAY!
who care???....

blahhh~!!!

shall end here.

LOST
i lost the light that have been guiding me.

damn...
why is so many people asking me to study this year?
is it really for the best?
or does it only seems like the best?

i really don't know what to do anymore.
i feel i'm neither here nor there.
WTH is wrong with me now?

stuck stuck...
what should i do.
stick with me decision or go with other's decision?
i dunno anymore.


the hand which i never wanna let go of; Jasmine

i edited this post as i blog in out of anger few hrs ago.
shall make it less violent.

EVERYDAY atleast 3 people will provoke me for dumb reason.
what's wrong with my life?

firstly, people who want to tag, kindly put ur name down.
from now on i won't entertain nameless people who i dont know.
i dont have time play guessing game with you all.

dont comment about my life, like i've said, it's mine!
unless, i know who r u.

secondly, i've been in bad condition with my FAMILY.
sister has been an ass, telling my mom everything that's written in my blog.
and my mom used it to say i unfair to them.
life was never fair....

shall end here.

Time to do smth about my life.
Moving on, aimlessly, don't know don't care what happen in the future;
it's just plain boring and scary.
knowing doing nothing will affect my future greatly, it's scary.

so yeah, i've decided to plan out my future.


Firstly, since i'm not studying anymore...
i shall just keep it as that because i know i'm not the chiong type.
it's too late to start now for me cause i cannot handle studying stress.
i will go back CHEC next year for the 1yr course and make sure this time, i study.

And so, since i have alot of free time now...
i will look for a job.
and take up some outside lesson too.
like maybe music, language, cooking, sewing, art lesson [either one] to keep my mind working.
and of cause, use my own working money.

and from there, i can meet more frens, enlarge my circle of frens and improve my social skills for the future.

and from that, i can learn to plan my time wisely.
for working, learning, frens, family & boyfren.
this is what i call living life to the fullest.
(:

and maybe i should plan out some exercise day too.
keep a healthy life style.




Okay, let's talk about,

MONDAY; 15 JUNE 2oo9


HAPPY 3th MONTH ANNERVERSARY BABY!


Today meet baby at 2.30pm at doubby gaut.
baby was late a little.
then went to cathay, saw Russel[baby's classmate] & baby's gal de fren.
then walk around to see what to eat.
end up decided to go in a restaurant, i forgot wad name it was.
baby at beef steak as usual while i eat beef spaghetti.

after that we went to meet Marc & Rachael
and watched DRAG ME TO HELL.
it's not very scary actually.
just SUPER CHUA SAI!
after that baby brought me to the singapore flyer.
and we took a ride!
super romantic i swear.
but cause got another ang mo couple.
so spoil mood.
the night view was beautiful!

after that went to eat popeyes.
wanted to try the popcorn shrimp but sold out.
so ate the Fish burger set with an extral cole slaw.
vege~
yummy!

after that bus back to baby house there, meet Vince and Justin at the play ground.
and slack the night away.
in between, got one asshole throw smth like a water ballon down towards us.
then vince and baby angry went up and look to them.
but guess vince is just too hot headed and kick the door real hard and scolded valgure.
so we decided to leave the play ground.


TUESDAY; 16 JUNE 2oo9

morning, pei baby go school.
then from school there took bus 855 back to yishun.
ate KFC then went home.

meet baby again in CHEC at 12 plus.
saw alot of frens, missed them.
they ask me to return to school and study so actually really thought about it.
they even offer to help me with my studies if i come back.
i really appriciate it but...
i guess i cant make it this year.

after that, went to the coffee shop near by to eat.
then went off to baby house there de mac.
saw kim and another baby guy fren.
so walk around with them.
baby felt hungry so went to the coffee shop to eat.

went back to mac to meet kaiyang.
slack all the way there after that.
till 2am plus then went to nicole house and played poker all the way till 6am in the morning.

WEDNESSDAY; 17 JUNE 2oo9

morning, went to eat at the market.
then went back to baby house.
wait for him to bath and change then we went to school by bus 65.
baby fell aslp on my lap while i feel aslp on his back.
when we wake up, we're at habbour front already.
so walk opposite and took bus 65 again, went back to school and i took bus 855 home again.

got home around 10 or 11am, listen to mum nag and went to bed.
woke up at 8.43pm.
bath and been infront of the com since then.

very hungry now...









the THOUGHTS of YOU changed ME; Jasmine

My days are COLORFUL;
like a RAINBOW;
because of YOU.

another 1hour and 26mins to me and baby's 3th month.
as time passes by and the time we're tgt increases,
memories accumulated and
the love we have for each other deepens more and more.
It get harder and harder to part from you everyday.
The time we spends together never seems enough for me.
I gave up my life to devote it only to you and only you; my baby.


YTD; Saturday, 13 JUNE 2oo9

meet up with baby 6plus.
watch X-man wolverine with baby and slack around.
then at night, hungry.
meet MARC at mac and went kopitiam eat XiaoWanMian.
then met up with kaiyang there too.
after that slack under baby block and met VINCE.

some more freaking suay!
suddenly got a Malay family eat DURIAN under baby block.
then baby HATE DURIAN smell.
so he tabuleitahan and rush out the block.
heng never vomit out.

so we decided to go up to baby house.
only marc came up while the other needa meet ppl and go home.

reach baby house, marc and baby keep on talking about gal.
haiis...
hear liao siian diao.
should have gone home.
oh well...

after a while, marc like sot circuit.
suddenly everything in baby room also can take and play.
after that marc left and we went down to meet Justin and another 2 more guy.
funny people i must say.
cant stop laughting the whole night till morning 6am.
hahas.

after breakfast, the others went home while i went to baby house.
baby used com awhile then feel tired.
so i pei him lie down untill he fall aslp then i set off home.

tired like one dog but could sleep.
so use com untill 11am then sleep.
woke up at 4.15pm+

MISSED CHURCH!!!
GYAAA!

baby never go church too.
so stayed home the whole day.

at night, meet mummy and bought some stuff and ate dinner.

now home and talking to my baby.

it's 12.06AM now.
wished each other happy 3th month at zun zun 12AM just now.
幸せな感じ~!



私の赤ん坊のための焼けるケーキ; Jasmine

You're my miracle;
Magical Moments With You.

Friday; 12 JUNE 2oo9

Didnt had a wink at all since ytd.
tried calling baby up at 7.30AM.
but guess he's too tired...
even tio scolding when he's in his 'sleeping conscious' mood.
T^T

baby did apologies when i told him about it though.
so cute~~~

went to bath and prepare around 11am plus.
then reach baby house around 2.15pm.

finally can see baby~
so happy~~~
*doki doki*

then went to eat mac wif baby.
almost starve to death~~~
hahas.
got the last cup from the upsize.
COMPLETE THE CUP COLOR COLLECTION!!!
hahas.

after that meet kaiyang and kaiying at baby house.
slack awhile till like 6pm as baby was engross in the MR BROWN jokes.
then we bus down to EHUB and watch Pelham123.
in my point of view, usually it wouldn't be the type of show i would wanna watch.
but in a cinema, the atmosphere is different.
when everyone is watching, it makes you wanna watch.
so it's kinda okay to me.

after that, bus back to tamp and took bus 969 home.
it's always so hard to part with baby.
T^T

now using com and chatting to baby over the phone. <3



LOVE is magic; Jasmine

Forward;
One step, Two step, Three step.
i'm getting closer!

It's 6 in the morning and i must admit...
i'm in quite a good mood since last night.

i figure out that i just thinks too much.
but that doesn't mean the fault is all mine to bare.

i suddenly had this feeling something's aren't right, like baby's hiding something from me.
i asked him and he seems like he's pretty busy, in a hurry that kind and told me he'll call me later.
when he called, he sounds kinda depress.
and he told me his reason.
baby world like slowly suddenly all messed up.
i cant be a nucient when baby's facing the big wave in life.
i have to be there for him.

so yeah, not gonna stay depress any longer.
i just gotta be more zhi dong[auto].
NO MORE ALL TALK NO ACTION.
instead of sitting at home complaining, i should just change it myself!
MANUALLY! (:

later i'm gonna go fetch baby from school.
he's ending school 11.30am
i'm not gonna let it be the 5th day without baby!

GYAAA!
i forgot to bank in my check too.
gonna ask mummy to bank in for me.
and staying home kinda help me save money.
though its killing me but...
it's good to save money!

i'm still so in love with Japanese culture.
the food, the hotspring, the yukata & kimono, the language even the FOOD!!!
the best is that the current, fashion, make up and technology there is so damn nice!
soba, nabeimoni, sashimi, cawamushi~~~
*sparkle sparkle effect*
*drooling~~~*


excuse me while i enjoy myself in dreamland for a while.
-BRB-


I HAVEN FOUND ANY JOB YET!!!
LELONG LELONG!
DESPRESTLY SEEKING A JOB HERE!!! [WIF BABY]
LING LING LING! [ring bell like selling icecream]




私およびあなたがあった時; Jasmine

SPEECHLESS;
no point, no words, no nothing.

4th day without my baby...
the feeling: STRENGTH-LESS

Dont let excuses stop you, if it do, then it doesnt matter much to you at all in the first place.

Don't let excuses stop you; a quote from the church.
no use saying it...
no use understanding it...
when no actions are taken.

saying it is so easy that anyone could say it.
when no one takes actions.
all talk no action...
easier said than done.


tired...



baby busy with school and fren.
i can get use to him not by my side de.
like i've been repeating, i cannot always rely on him.
he got his own life, own frens.
i cannot always stick to him.
i'm okay de.
just gotta enlarge my circle of frens once again.



i'll be okay as long as i believe i'm okay. (:



so, SMILE JASMINE! (:

smile smile smile, i can get through this; Jasmine

i have to hold the smile on;
even if the sky falls.

3th day without my baby.
the feeling: tired...

morning, wake up, used com all the way.
feel like smth had changed all of a sudden.
like i suddenly lost smth.
i dunno, just like a diamon which drop into the middle of the ocean and sank all the way down; missing forever.
but who know, maybe someday it may found again.
some how, in some way, some time in the future.

decided to stay home pei mummy today.

used the com the whole day, took nap then use com again.
like super NO LIFE....
what to do, blame myself lor.
my fault for not planning my life properly lurhhs.

haiis, life is a pain in the butt!

miss my baby, but like i've said in my previous post.
i cannot always rely on him...





gotta get used to it; Jasmine

Even when the sky falls,
i know i can keep that smile on; till the last second.

2 day without baby.
the feeling: empty.

not like i didnt hab this feeling before.
well, should get used to it.
i cannot always rely on my baby and stick to him either anyway.
he got his own life and own fren too.
as for me...
my frens...
the computer! =="

miss my sec school group.
XIAOWEN! WEETENG! ANDY LUM! PATRICK STARFISH!

some PAST YEARS PHOTOS with those people that i named above.













anyway, noticed tt i did post a post few days ago that i got a feeling something bad is gonna happen a few weeks or months later...
when i said bad,
it can mean a changes,
a challenge,
a shocking news
or a big wave coming my way.

how right could that prediction be?





It's just a matter of time; Jasmine

Friday; 5June2oo9

As some people can see from my tag, me and my baby had some misunderstanding.
but everything is alright now.
sorry baby, didnt state properly when i tag.


Today went to look for baby after his work.
wanted to surprise him, didnt tell him i would go down.
hope it did. (:

kinda forgot about the pay.
baby reminded me when he saw me.
hahas.
so took my pay.
did have 31 bucks went to CPF.
after CPF deduction: $534.39
YATA!!!

After that, went off to cine to watch movie with Jeremy, XiaoPang, AhBoon&hisGF, keen, cheiw xiong, nicki.
keen & nicki is KIMGARY supervisor&manager sia.
hahas.

bought tickets; baby paid for me again...
ありがとう! 愛しなさい!
went to the foodcourt or some sort at the opposite and eat.
eat the malay fried rice and ALMOST DIE!
damn hot, got CHILLI!!
RAWR!!!
didnt know that...

2am; went to watch movie.
Me and my dearest watch Night at the museum 2,
while the others watch Terminator Slavation.
becoz we watch terminator before le.
And i swear, both are super nice show!!!

Meet up back tgt after the movie.
waiting for cab and cab back to baby house.
felt like vomiting all the way.
then went to mac and ate something.
think cause the whole day never eat then suddenly eat chilli stuff so like tt.
baby bought the hot cake like burger gib me.
赤ん坊再度ありがとう! 私は愛する!

after that, went to baby house.
i used computer till baby fall aslp then i went to slp.
cover blanket properly for baby then pulled out the mattress and slept.




Saturday; 6June2oo9

when i woke up, aunty was talking to baby and he's already awake and sneezing like hell.
opps, did i pass him my flu?

aunty cooked bee hoon for us and i ate it.
DAMN YUMMY!!!

after that went to bath and all and went down to Tamp1 wif baby.
meet up with christ kor while baby went to tell don he's not working today coz his nose just became water tap.
then meet up with CJ and had dinner at century square tgt.
didnt eat as i was still full of this afternoon bee hoon.
after that we went to the open air place and slack slack abit.
Christ and CJ seems to click quite well.

after that took 969 and bused home with kor.
reached home, msg baby and used com all the way.
when baby reached home after supper, he called me and we chat till he's tired
and i went off to bed.

read some of the old msn conversation history of me and my last time frens.
kinda miss those time.
but i think i'm still as carefree as always.
and it's a bad thing~~~
when will i start to get serious and work on my future!!!
i better hope i'll wake up soon, i have to!




Sunday; 7June2oo9

Woke up and prepared to meet baby for church today.
met him at cityhall and we walk to NewCreation tgt.
hee~ no need sit in the overflow room today.

after church, we went to eat at marinabay the food court.
there was cheese bakE rice too!
and i SWAER, over my dead body that the cheese bake rice here is WAY MUCH MORE TASTIER than the ones in KIMGARY.
and not to mention, cheaper too!
only $5.80!!!
baby ate beef steak again; as usual~ [x

after that, walk down to bugis and meet up with CJ, nehemia&hisGF, huiying.
walked to hajilane and SHEESHA.
today's flavour was grape and strawberry.
[dont scold me~ ]

but most of the time we were playing with video instead of sheesha.
hahas.

left at around say... 10.30pm?
walk back to bugis street and saw Daryl with his frens.
after that baby and CJ wanted to drink so we walk abit to dunno where and while they drink, we had a 'LAME JOKE' session tgt.
left around 11.20pm and train home.

now i'm home and missing my baby~

baby starting school tml le....
SAD...
i'm so gonne be dead bored now...

i wanna buy assesment!!
and maybe go back to school with baby.
while he got class, i do my assesment at a peaceful and quiet place like; CHEC!!!
xD

and maybe can ask some of the teachers for help too.
may god bless me.

i have so much to buy!!!
534.39 bucks is enough for me to buy, not enough for me to EAT!
wtf!
@ not enough for me to save for next month CHALET!!!
die die die die die.
how sia...

ANY JOB LORBANG WHICH PAY IS MORE THAN 5BUCKS PERDAY?!?!?!
URGENTLY WANTING A JOB BY THIS WEEK!

The sparkle; The stars; The memories

The you, The me; then.

Past photos, when i'm still in sec3. xD

i'm tired...
alot things going through my mind...
i'm kinda worry about the future....
got a feeling something bad is gonna happen a few weeks or months later...

shall not think so much...

i should go sleep right now.

tml is pay day...
i should be happy about it.




xoxo, Jasmine was here.

Having you beside me;
i feel that i can get through anything.

Today woke up around 3plus..
rot at home till 6plus and went to bath.
meet baby, kaiyang, kaiying, nehemiah, huiying & CJ at EHUB.
watched Terminator tgt.
baby paid for my ticket; THANKS BABY!

the show abit jing zhang one lor.
make my heart pump so fast.
scared sia.

after the movie.
we took bus 21 while nehemiah&huiying walk off to dunno where.
CJ left at tamp while the rest & me went to bedok.
had my first meal of the day near baby house de kopitiam.
i ate fishball tung hoon again.
hahas.
didnt have much appetite this few days...
T^T

after that cab back home.
cab fare $22.50
dad paid for my cab fare.

reach home played all zynga games in facebook.

Today abit in the thinking mood.
alot funny things go through my mind.
about the past, the present, and the future.
what i have done, what i have regretted.
what i am in now..
and how am i gonna face the future...
actually kinda moody...

and had flu almost the whole day.
but ate medi le, so no longer sneezing le.
*happy happy*

yay, tml getting my pay liao.
cant wait.
but i wanna try to save as much as i can too.
planning something big in july.
>.<"
stress about money...

wanna book a chalet for my birthday...
2day 1 night is enough i guess...
anyone can give me information about chalet?
i never plan any chalet before so i super 'gong' about this thing...

i wanna get a new haircut and new clothes in early july too.
let say it as a birthday present to myself.
xD



okay, i guess i'll end here for today.

Good night people!
sweet dreams!





Thinking of you; Jasmine

Your presence;

so smoothing, so clam.
That's all i need; you, my baby.

it's been a long time since i can blog with photos.
now using my sister old phone.
Sonny ericsson S500i.
atleast there's a 2maga pixie and a MP3...

and i have my old memory card so got some old photos back. (:

let's talk about 30 may.
didnt sleep that night before...
waited for my ErJie to buy supper home for me.
but she didnt reach home till like, 7am?
damn FUCK UP.
quarreled and wake the whole family up.
baby waited for me the whole night as i told him i will take first bus to his house.
but since me sister would be late so i asked him to slp first.
he tell me okay but guess he's really worried that when i come in the morning 7plus am, he couldnt wake up to open the door and i would be alone so end up didnt slp.
my silly baby~
but i end up chasing him to sleep again.

went to baby house at 9plus am?
spam baby's HP but guess he's aslp...
waited outside his house till 10.49am then called his house.
his mother answered the phone so i ask if she could open the door for me.
heng she had already woke up, not i woke her up de though. [x
kept Randy[andy's little brother] entertained.
after that felt tired so went to sleep on the mattress beside baby's bed.
baby was aslp since i reach his house.

when i woke up, baby is sleeping at the edge of his bed facing me and sharing his blanket with me~
felt so happy and blessed! ❤

after that, woke up around 12.30pm.
he went to bath and all and we left tgt to go to TPY to meet his officer.
spent some simple yet precious time tgt on the way there.
after that waited for like 30 to 40min for him to come out with his parents.
then we set off to FarEast and ate mogu mogu.
we ate beef bowl.
i ate the beef bowl set which comes with the soup and the cawamushi[steam egg].
and one additional coke.
while baby ate only the beef bowl with a coke.

my food

one of the dish there.
forgot the name.
photo Credits goes to my 2nd sister.

and there was this group of girls sitting one table away infront of us.
we sat in the middle facing the door there.
so the girls were directly under the window.
they were like playing and laughting and suddenly,
there this one of the girls, lied down on the chair.
WORST OF ALL, SHE'S WEARING A SKIRT!
and it's like QI TAO UPSKIRT!
FUCK, baby saw and turned away.
i tot wad happen and looked.
then WA LAO EH!
she's wearing black undies and she seems like she's wearing PAD!!!

CAN'T SHE FUCKING BEHAVE HERSELF, SHE'S IN PUBLIC!
AND MY BABY IS FREAKING FACING THEIR TABLE!
AND HE'S A GUY!
FUCK, buay pai seh one sia tt girl.

as i was saying, i pointed out to her frens she cao geng.
then her frens laught at her and tell her then she still dont wan sit up.
FUCK UP KNOW!

after that they left and we happen to finished our food too so we left behind them.
then that girl like just realise how paiseh it was and kinda walk away damn fast blocking her face.
it's not like we never see her face like that before...
before the upskirt incident she like keep on looking towards our direction dunno looking at wad.
we already noticed her buang-ness liao.

forget about it, let's carry on.
after that we went to walk around the fareast plaza.
trying to look for chio bu.
but like cant see any at all...
siian.

after that around 5.30 we walk to orchard MRT station.
baby left for work while i float around fareast waiting for my mother.
then 7plus float around orchard looking for my mother.
then we went down to tampines.
went to M1 shop and mummy bought a new touch screen phone.

after that meet daddy outside KIMGARY and went in KIMGARY to eat.
SAW BABY~!!!
慈しみ~~~! ❤

baby took our order for us.
he seems kinda nervous.
hahas, so cute.

ate cheese bake rice.
FUCK, it's not that good with white corn sauce.
then the assorted mushroom also damn digusting!
think maybe cause also with corn sauce.

but love the red pepper fries and the egg wrap fish mushroom rice!
IT'S THE BEST!
the borsh soup also nice.

then baby keep making funny face to me then i giggle abit and all.
LOVE BABY LOTS LOTS!
then when me and my parents have to go.
i kinda stay back a while to talk to the others.
then it's closing le ma, so baby asked me to bend down at the counter.
at first i tot wad.
then he suddenly bend down and kissed me!
so happy! ❤
hahas...
then reluctenly went off home.



Day before yester; 31MAY

Today i meet up with baby around 5plus.
had our time tgt till 1plus?
dad came to fetch me to the air port.
mummy, er jie and erjie BF going Tokoy - narita and having their 5am flight.
went to air port and took some photos tgt and drink hot chocolate and went off.
then daddy drive me to nehemiah house to get my make up pouch back.
YAY!

after that went home and sleep.
it suddenly feel so scary to sleep in a room alone.
siian....



Yesterday; 1June

rot at home.
almost died.
X_x



Today; 2June

meet baby for breakfast in the morning.
left house around 5.50am
took first bus to baby house.
ate fishball tung hoon.
quite nice sia.
not too saltish and all.

after that went to baby house, watch The tale of despereux.
tired watching X-Men but...
baby downloaded the wrong one.
he downloaded the WORK PRINT.
and i swear it is DAMN funny.
all the incomplete thing...
go download and watch and u will know how fucked up funny it is.

okay, after that i fell aslp when we watch The Hulk.
when i woke up, baby was sleeping too.
at first the blanket was with me.
then the second time i woke up, the blanket with with baby.
i was freaking cold but i lazy to take the blanket from baby so i just leave it as that.
woke up sneezing like a dog.

went down to mac to meet baby's fren.
saw my junior. [hor hor, she paikia sia. =X ]
talk to her abit and went off to meet kim.
it's her birthday YTD.
i haven wish her a happy birthday...
that's not very frenly of me.
sorry, i'm just not the kind that take initiative...
anyway, i'll wish her a happy birthday here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 16th KIM! ((:

6pm, went to kim gary and ate egg wrap fish mushroom rice.
baby ate the nu mo wang hot plate set meal.
he said it tasted yucky.
so i tried it and it sure tasted kinda weird.
he force it down anyway as he as hungry.
baby paid for me.
THANKS BABY! ❤

after that i reluctanly went off while baby went to work.

reach home and found a new lock at my door.
dad put it up as he was angry that i went out so early this morning i guess.


OYASUMINASAI!!!



Some past photos...

rainbows

rainbows

sleep like a human sia!
愛くるしい!!!