Reality;
It's not just Rainbows&Butterflies.

though this is a new blog created this year, i already had 71post!
not bad huh~

but my last blog has 380+ post.
xD

Today stayed home, didnt meet baby.
morning woke up 8am plus.
first thing that come through my mind every morning when i wake up is "did baby go school today?"
msg him to see if he's awake.
he replied, "ya"

so i went to use com after that.





been keeping myself in thoughts today.
think and concluding.
asking myself again and again the same question.
concluding this concluding that.
i'm tired of needing to think so much.
it never stops every single day.
compressing, trying to understand, trying to think of a solution.

is it really so important to blame?
is punishment really needed?
i don't understand anymore.
the love i know, is not the love i see.
so what is love?
i don't get it anymore!

i simply just wish that when i open my eye tml morning, it'll be alright.
every year i wish my birthday will be a happy one.
without having to feel sad or cry.
because ever since i cried during my birthday when i was in primary school.
since then, every birthday has been filled with sadness...
its like the happiness i can feel during my birthday is limited.
it's like what the old people said, its like a curse.
year over year i told myself i'm too 'Mi Xing'.
but year over year i tell myself the next year will be different.
and yet year over year, its a different kind of sadness.
shall not think so much...

looking back, i feel like the world's changing.
not the develop kind of changing.
but the people hearts and the feeling everyone gives out.
maybe i am slowly growing out of my own little fantasy world and facing reality.
things aren't just rainbows and butterfly anymore.



this childish thing called LOVE; ღJasmine