It doesnt matter.
When the time comes,
we all know tt we just gotta accept it.

i hope baby dont read this...

i feel broken...
after hearing how much leah has once meant to him...
i feel sad...
i feel that i'm still far from the place where leah has once held in baby's heart.
how much more should i work hard?...
what else can i do?

people once said i wasnt understanding enough; i've change.
people said i get jealous too easily; i've change.
people said i wasnt sensitive enough; i've change.
people said i wasnt fun enough to be around with; i've change.
people said i was too quiet; i've change.
what else can i do?....


couldn't stop thinking about it ever since he told be about it.
and look like i'm quite good at hiding my feelings after all.
he doesnt seems to noticed how troubled i am...
and i started to think...
maybe i wasnt the one for him after all...
maybe its just fate pulling us tgt.
when the fate is over, we'll end up like nth.

Cancerian; sure is an emotional one... (:

heartach...





let's not talk about sad stuff anymore!

Later i'm working full time morning shift.
i know i know, u problably think i wouldnt be able to wake up ryt?...
well...
i'll try my best... infact, i HAVE TO!
like wad my supervisor said: "for andy's sake"
coz only when i work morning, i can have a long break in the middle.
so that i can have time for baby...
been hesitating about whether to change to full time to earn more money for 3weeks already.
as i fear the lesser sleep and time i have will reflect badly on my relationship.
but now, finally, my answer is yes.

whatever happens after that...
i guess...
it doesnt matter much...
i'm used to pain anyway...
used to heartach and all.
i learn to accept my suay-ness
so i've learn to accept whatever that happened.
it's okay, whatever not meant to be will never be...
so yeah, i've numb the pain abit.




This two week, i will have different off day as baby...
today baby's not working.
tml, i off baby's working.
what am i gonna do tml without baby?...
my life ended up being only about andy...
what should i do tml?...



my life...
it sucks.
never once i tot my life was wonderful...
oh well...
only for a moment once in a blue moon.
dont u think the same too?
being alive is boring.
everyone should die soon and die young!
so we wouldnt have to suffer more.

since sec1 when i started to use MSN alot, i will always write " i rather i had never exist before"
and that thought has never changed before.
i guess alot of u out there might think the same too isnt it.
well, life's like tt...
how long more do i have to suffer sia?
i wanna die in my sleep!!!
lols.
or just put me in a coma forever is good enough. (:

GAAAA!

i know i know, i'm not talking human...
i shall go sleep soon.
good night.
bye bye.




Reply of taggies:

To XiaoWen - I OPEN CHALET SURE INVITE YOU! MUST COME HOR!
cant manage to eat good food this month sia, fuck! oh well...
Hummm... i drop out from CHEC le; the private O school. but i've paid the O level fee le so i can still study on my own and go back and take O levels though. (:

To HaoKor - huh? airport got sell wad thing sia?...
i only went there twice. once last year, once this year.
all i saw was FOOD!!! xD







P.S: sorry, i still haven change any better HP with good photo quality.
so... no photos yet! (: