*SLAP SELF*
please dont let me fall in love again!
no no no no no!

i feel like crying.
feel like dying.

it's not hard to explain why.
but it's dumb to explain why.
is my expectation to high or am i just asking too much?

is it really that hard?

i really wanna burst it all out.
i feel like bursting.
but how?

kill me fast.
end my misery.

maybe, its just my fate.
to die alone.


i'm just...
too afraid to be alone.
i dont like the feeling of being left out.
dont like the feeling that i'm facing everything alone.
i understand some stuff are meant to be faced alone.
but, i when there's stuff that need not be faced alone, i wish that everyone who i hold dear to, will be there for me, especially that someone i love.
and yes, i love to be love and i love to share my love too; ofcoz not share boyfriend lahhs.

haiis...
fine, it's hard to explain in words in a everyone view...

*bang wall, bang table, bang chair*


i shall reborn my hair this year;
jap perm it next year;
cut it short + reborn it the next next year.
hahas.

'think i'm going crazy soon'