Nightmare
what if i were to die in a few month time;
what will u all do?
what will i do?
what would i fulfill before i die a slow and ugly death?




it's scary to think that if u suddenly got cancer or what ever diseases and the doctor tells u that u'll die in a few months time.
what is left of ur life span, what u're gonna do with it?

preparing for death...
it's scary...






i pray hard that i wouldnt die so early too.
even though sometime i wishes to die soon so that i would need to go through this tough life...
but...
i kinda love my life.
the fren, the family, the relationship, new things happens everyday.
i wanna live; for as long as i can.




today,
went to school; damn i was late for class again.

colour up the present i made for dummy for our first months.
haven completed it yet
i'm only at the 2nd step of completing it.
there' s still another 5 to 6 more step.

after school, went pool with dummy, ricky, peggy and another guy; i forgot his name, also from school de.
the guy and dummy damn pro sia.
me and ricky noob noob de.
then i tyco tyco win ricky.
lol.

after pool, see them eat dinner and went home.

got home, bath and now using com.













something's been bothering dummy this few days...
i'm worried...

there's quite a number of stuff that dummy's been doing that i didnt realli like it at all.
but...
guess love concures it all.
or maybe, love has to concure and accept it all.
>.<

but obvious, if it smth serious, we have to sort it out tgt. (:

dummy told me that the road infront of us would get tougher and tougher.
but i'm not scared.
as long as i hab dummy and dummy hab me, i'm not scared.
so dummy, we must gambatte tgt okay?

i dont mind u keeping a secret from me, just dont lie to me.
and tell me when there's smth wrong.
so atleast i know and understand.
tell me ur reason for doing smth, so i wouldnt misunderstand too okay?...








i'm going to bed soon...
waiting for dummy's reply in msn is like, forever...
miss him...


dummy, i love you. <3