i wished i hasn't dreamt of u last night;
because it was all a dream.





Looking at all our photos, our videos; gives me a warm and fuzzy feeling.
But when i look at how we are now.
The warm feeling turn icy cold at the dept of my heart.

Will we ever be the same again?
i question myself again and again.
Afraid to move forward nor backwards.
What do i have to do? What can i do?
Trying to lift myself up and move but the fear stops me.
Fear of falling, again and again.

Countless times i feel like just turning around and walk away.
But i never manage to do it.

What have become of us now?
What to do to be able to be like before?
idk, i'm scared, i'm in pain, we're in pain.

i'm still thinking a solution...
what can we do to make things better?...





YTD, went to had my O levels chinese oral.
nervous yet the conversation part is not bad i think.
Then look for the cleaner aunty and talk to her a little.
A PSB guy walk towards us and we started chatting.
He's the aunty's fren.
He intor me about PSB and studies stuff.
He gave me his name card and ask for my phone number so that he can give me more info about PSB.
i accepted the card but say it's okay, when i wan to know more about PSB, i'll call him, since i have his name card.

After that went to Orchard paragon and had my INTERVIEW.
all the france bosses are scary and so formal. T^T
train down to bugis after that to look for mummy to eat tgt.
After that train home again.
Having a terrible headache so decided to sleep after a while.
And today, i'm awake at 8plus.
My bio clock has changed to sleeping early and waking up early.
is this good news or what? (:




i need an island to refuge; ღJasmine