when everything breaks down today;

i know i'll be stronger tomorrow.

i look kinda sad here...

Today went to school late.
was having period cramps in the morning.

actually wanted to ask wayne out to a movie.
marley and me.
we promised to watch it tgt before we got together.
oh well...

after school, went out with neil maya, huiping and peggy.
along with other 7 guys.

slack outside fareast plaza.
talk alot and blah blah blah.
went home at 8 plus.
took a 2hr ride home from orchard.
backside fucking pain.

got home bath and MSN wayne.
we broke up le.
damn sad but this will never stop me from moving on in life.
wo hen jian qiang de wor.



TML going to meet peggy and glenn to school.
after that going to northland's passion arts at RP with Ichirou and Misuke.

hope HX didnt strain his legs too much.
but cant wait for the wushu performance.

TO ALL CHEC TEACHERS: ME AND WAYNE BROKE UP LE, SO PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME ANYTHING ABOUT WAYNE ANYMORE NOR REGUARD HIM AS MY BOYFRIEND ANYMORE!
THANKS!

random...
shall go slp...
tml's gonna be a long day.

our last photo tgt.

Jasmine is gonna be alright.

Where's the rainbow,
when i needed it the most?

slept after i msg wayne at 3am plus last night/this morning, which is the time he wakes up and helps his dad with the business.
woke up and check my phone; no reply from him.
thought to myself, maybe he didnt wan to wake me up therefore didnt reply.
decided to msg him again to tell him i'm awake; tt was around 11.30pm.
most probably he's on his way home or preparing to go out for dragon boating around that time.
once more, he didnt reply.
untill 7.22pm then he replied that he just finish charging his phone.
oh well....

meet up with mom in the evening for dinner.
SAKAE SUSHI!!!
SUSHI!!!
SUSHI!!!!!!!!!!!
[x

total bill: $42+
hoho.
=X

after that, walk around abit.
looking for new bag.
[x

bought a book in popular.
'The Essential Teenage HandBook'
it's a realli nice book!!!
i love it man!!!

after walking alot, mom felt tired so we went to mac and had a drink and a heart to heart talk.
somewhat heart to heart.
but i told her alot about me and wayne.
she's worried; i know, tt's why i'm filling her up with informations and telling her, i'm alright.
i can handle it.
dont worry about it.
told her i wanna get a job too.
she agree.
happy happy~

after that we even plan to go out tgt tml evening.
go for a movie and tt's all.
actually just now when shopping, saw this braclet that's super nice on her.
but reach home le then she say she like it alot.
so i told her tml i help he buy le then go meet her for movie hao le.

wonder if i can manage to get in touch with valen tml.
wanna ask him pei me go shop for me and wayne's first month's present.
stephanie said if she can, she might join us.
(:
cant wait to complet the present. <3>


when i get older.
i wanna go get it to sharpen a little.
it's a bit too round.
=X
u know what i mean? [:

actually i expect alot from my own life.
expecting alot from my own like = i have to work as hard too.
the reason i'm not working tt hard is i'm afraid of the clever ppl.
after having the experience that the express class's problem is alway way chaotic than the Normal class.
kinda dont wanna mix witht the clever ppl too much.
but OMG! this year, the ppl in my school is all so friendly. <3

i really, really, really like this photo!
OMG!
pro camera jui shi pro camera! [x

❥Boii, i want you to be there for me; mentally and physically.

forcefull smile

i love him.

Today went school early!
FINALLY!
NOT LATE LE!
hee~

cause meet up with peggy and rick at school bus stop.
meet up with them late by half an hour.
NOOOO~!
MUST STOP BEING LATE!!!
>.<

stupid habbit!

got into school then saw this senior who is busy decorating the cafeteria.
she was like, blowing two ballons at the same time, so we went up to help her.
*how kind of us!*
*cough*
help her think of ideals to deco the place too!!!

went to take maths test today.
set and vend digram was kinda easy.
but my HCF, LCM SUCKS!
dead!

after maths was break didnt had mood the whole day.
so didnt eat, went to continue making the present for out first month at the lepak place outside classrooms.
damn the aircorn was cold.
>.<
then dunno why, slowly slowly, my mood turn good le.
then started to feel hungry liao at the cafeteria, there's this birthday celebration for the JAN & FEB babies.
i was invited by jowene so they got order food for me.
so i took the cheese burger and drinks.
i joined photography elective so Mr David ask me to taker photos using his SUPER COOL CAMERA!
OMG!
i wan one too!!!
>=<

took burger for wayne too, alot extras.
xD
ate tgt during class.
hee~

due to the problem wayne's facing, we seem like drifting apart.
so i was kinda moody this few days...
trying real hard not to do stupid stuff and all.
keep repeating the reasons in my head...
hen xing ku, but must nu li. for us!
i hope all this don't go to waste.

but after break; he sudden become so close to me, i was really happy!
he told me the problems he had is starting to cool down le.
so we kinda let lose a little, and be just like ourself le. (:

and for the rest of the day,
i was rather HYPER; infact, VERY HYPER.
flunk my eng test, damn my vocab sucks.
I NEED TO READ MORE BOOKS!
OMG!!!
english english english!
i musn't fail english!!!!

then was BIO.
hee~
bio seems kinda fun today.
had lots of test and had bio class photo taking. <3
Mr David rocks!!!
Miss Selena rocks too!!!
My top two fav teacher; science teachers!<3

After school, went to shisha with wayne, ricky, peggy, matthias, huiping, tiffiany and stephanie.
but only me, wayne, rick and matthias shisha-ing.
cool man. been a long time since i tasted cigrette smell.
but this is nothing compared to cigrettes.
16bucks and u can keep this on for hours and shared by 4ppl, man, it's worth it.
[i hope my relative doesn't read this]
>.<

left the place at 8pm...
was hyper all the way since noon, after break.
made 2 new frens; huiping and tiffiany.
they're nice ppl i guess. (:

damn i'm broke!!!
everytime wanna save $ become wasting it all on us.
lols...

god damnit!
monday's our first month le.
everything must to be done by then.
may god bless me.

been thinking of wanting lots of stuff...
my wishlist is growing!!!
and i'm broke!!!
stephanie sweetie!!!
faster help me ask ur boss~~~
i wan a job!
fast!!!





Wishlist:

more singlet!!! [due to hot weather]
panda pencil box [i using paper as my pencil box now T^T]
coloured flies[for diff sub]
eraseable highlighter
whiteboard marker[pink de also can! school need]
new bag [bag spoild]

see doctor for face[$50]

wallet
dye hair
2 more shorts
black with gold print cap
a longer cardin
1 hoodie
1 cavana
camera


OMG; this is so freaking many things!!!












silly love dummy; dummy love silly.
we gave the best we could; dont let any of the efforts go to waste.

Nightmare
what if i were to die in a few month time;
what will u all do?
what will i do?
what would i fulfill before i die a slow and ugly death?




it's scary to think that if u suddenly got cancer or what ever diseases and the doctor tells u that u'll die in a few months time.
what is left of ur life span, what u're gonna do with it?

preparing for death...
it's scary...






i pray hard that i wouldnt die so early too.
even though sometime i wishes to die soon so that i would need to go through this tough life...
but...
i kinda love my life.
the fren, the family, the relationship, new things happens everyday.
i wanna live; for as long as i can.




today,
went to school; damn i was late for class again.

colour up the present i made for dummy for our first months.
haven completed it yet
i'm only at the 2nd step of completing it.
there' s still another 5 to 6 more step.

after school, went pool with dummy, ricky, peggy and another guy; i forgot his name, also from school de.
the guy and dummy damn pro sia.
me and ricky noob noob de.
then i tyco tyco win ricky.
lol.

after pool, see them eat dinner and went home.

got home, bath and now using com.













something's been bothering dummy this few days...
i'm worried...

there's quite a number of stuff that dummy's been doing that i didnt realli like it at all.
but...
guess love concures it all.
or maybe, love has to concure and accept it all.
>.<

but obvious, if it smth serious, we have to sort it out tgt. (:

dummy told me that the road infront of us would get tougher and tougher.
but i'm not scared.
as long as i hab dummy and dummy hab me, i'm not scared.
so dummy, we must gambatte tgt okay?

i dont mind u keeping a secret from me, just dont lie to me.
and tell me when there's smth wrong.
so atleast i know and understand.
tell me ur reason for doing smth, so i wouldnt misunderstand too okay?...








i'm going to bed soon...
waiting for dummy's reply in msn is like, forever...
miss him...


dummy, i love you. <3

alot happen this few day.
alot went through my mind...

please dont let me remember...
please dont remind me about it...
please just brain wash me...
i dont wanna remember...

i'm DANGEROUS
throw away the RAINBOW and walk through the MIST.

very fan very fan very fan.
broken promises; change of attitude, drifting us apart; what will be left of us now?

i wan go fuma...
irresistible.

study study study!
like how i promised.

haven been eating well for days.
eating one meal per day, sometime, not even eating.

random and short post; letting abit of myself out.
sleepy; good night ppl.


So what if i'm naive and dumb?


Jasmine want ice mint.

SMILE.
It's not always rainbows & butterfly.

8 Feb 2oo9

Sunday,
Slept 3am plus last night.
woke up 7.50am.
took my time to prepare.
left house at 10am
went to somerset to pass mummy the stuff she had forgotten to bring.
and went on to meet wayne, Ricky, Valen and wu kiong[koren] at Tana merah.
wa late by half an hour.
sorry~

took bus to the jetty.
took the boat to pula ubin.
first time going to pula ubin.
excited sial~~~
reach there, took photo at the 'WELCOME TO PULA UBIN' sign.
spray tons of sun block and insect repellen on myelf too.
the feeling of habing tons of both of this spray on myself is...
Slippery; oily~

lols.

rent a bicycle.
sit till backside damn pain ar.
Wayne was like cycling all the way infrot while i cycle all the way behind
especially at the steep steep slope.
i needa get down the bicycle and push it up slope.
damn ma fan.
sweat alot too!

there's this part where we wanted to go up a damn slopy road.
i was the first to go up, followed by valen.
end up the rest of them stoped and said that there's a tombstone.
and all cycle away.
damn!
after that, me and valen started to fall down and all.
valen's right break spoiled and end up banging into me when he's on the way down a slope.
and i got a small cut on the tumb.
then ricky bang into me, i got cut BIG on the leg.
then come a group of china idiot who keep ringing their bicycle's bell then i give way to them but they still ling ling ling till i gt distracted and fell down and hab lot of cuts on my left knee and twisted my right leg.
fell down on the rocky path.
damn!
though i was bleeding and my leg's twisted, i didnt wanna become a burden.
i continue to cycle.

OMG!!!
i hate sweating.
But oh well, all the sweating does payoff when i get off the bicycle and slowly enjoy the marvellous view.
cool.

i love the view from the top of the tower.
though climbing up is tiring and being up there, we're nearer to the sun therefore the heat is much more hot.
but, the wind and the beutiful view is like wow.
camera cant cature the view that one sees.

took lots of photo, of nature and fren ofcoz.
not myelf.
coz i sweat too much till very ugly le.
makeup melt~~~
T^T

now i think about it, in my life, only ONE guy saw me without make up de shi hou.
and i'm really glad that he always reasure me that, to him, i'm pretty; with or without make up.
(:

back to the present,
after all the viewings and all, it's about evening le.
so we went back to retrun the bicycle and procced to eating.
i didnt eat.
i was starving but i told them i wasnt hungry.
becuase i hab used up all my money for the traveling and rental fee.
i even need wayne to help me pay for my boat fee on the way back.

oh yeah, before leaving pula ubin, ricky took some cool shots for me and wayne by the beach.
the last shot was unbearable.
i hab open wounds and i still hab to enter the saltish sea water.
it' ****ing pain i tell euu.
but i hab to bear with it.
coz ricky's a great photographer!
xD

you all can view the photos at my face book. (:














9 Feb 2oo9


Monday,
Went to school late.
>.<

after school went to bugis library with wayne and valen.
study till 6pm lyk tt.
then went to sing KBOX.
SUANG!

Wayne and valen sing till their voice open le.
chiong last train home.














10 Feb 2oo9


Tuesday,
went to school late again.
WTH!

after school took bus to clack quay and eat.
chat with jowene and carman more today.
after that walk to china town de KTV sing till 10.30pm juii go le.
went home late.
mummy angry~...
>.<













11 Feb 2oo9


Wednessday,
went to school and was late ONCE MORE!
OMG!
my sec school habbit comming back le~
no!!!
cannot let this happen.
>.<
must jai you!

after school waited for wayne to end class, brough lappy and blog a little while waiting for him.
after that he came out and we cab down to doubby gaut de SHTC to meet wu kiong.
end up she's at yoh chu kang's de SHTC.
WTH!!!

end up walk in the rain to meet ricky's fren; Glenn and drick[dunno how to spell his name] at lan shop.
walk like forever to look for a private tattoo shop called "gimme love tattoo" as drick wanna continue his tattoo section.
use my lappy to gib the GUYs to watch anime.
intro natusme to them.
they seems to enjoy it.

got to know glenn more a little.
after that walked to doubby gaut mrt station and train home with glenn.
chat alot.
he got off at bishan and i continued my journey home alone.

didnt eat today; no appitite.

love this top alot; thanks wee. (:

my head looks big; coz never style hair then hair too flat
therefore making head look bigger.

my dummy boyfriend

kakashi wayne!LOL!
before we stead.

i look shity here

love u.

wayne & ricky

cool~

jump!

effect of near and far. [x

dummy look cute here lahhs!

hat flying; hair messy.

cacat sial~

he accidently hit me in the eye;
so i pretent to cry when he keep laughting at his own mistakes.
kel behind, so relaxe one him. xD

hard to be the one who handles the camera

Jasmine&Wayne; sticking tgt like SUPER GLUE!